It was 5PM in the evening and I logged into ibnlive to check for updates on India and I read MJ's news that he was admitted in the hospital due to heart attack. I felt something uneasy even before I could type in CNN to check the latest from there. As I expected, he was no more. I shuddered for a second, bringing my thoughts together, I went to the nearest cubicle and told my favorite tools manager, "Thomas, Michael Jackson is no more". I just wanted to release the heavy news my heart carried.
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Oh, I'm sorry, he was a nice man in my humble opinion, I don't know what the world says about him, but he was a nice guy", came the reply from Thomas. "
I agree", I replied back and went to my cubicle to read more. But I couldn't. I switched off the laptop and left for the day.
I felt really bad. As we drove back I was thinking of the days my dad used to play MJ's songs on our first 160 watts philips audio station, the days I used to practise the "moonwalk" the whole day, the days I used to admire "Jam" while playing basketball, the days I so wanted to "dance" like him. Memories came racing back in no time. I tried to be okay, 'cos being too emotional wouldn't help the living. In the evening I went out for my daily jogging session. I couldn't run for more than 400 metres non-stop. I'm used to jogging for 4.5 Kms non-stop, but this seemed to be unusual. Probably, I was too tired to run. After completing 6.5 Kms of jogging + walking, I returned home to take a hot shower and went to bed pretty early than usual.
First thing after I got up in the morning, I realized something that I read the previous evening about MJ, a woman had said, "
No one can write better than him". That is true. Without my knowledge I started to sing the "
Heal the World" song. I should sing the song everyday I felt. I'm fighting for the same world, where there is love, happiness and joy. I'm fighting to make this world a better place.
I personally know many who have written/said bad things about him. Until a few years ago, even I was one of the common men who judged humans without knowing the real truth. I wish those men/women just leave MJ's soul in peace. Atleast in death, please leave him alone.
I read a comment in YT,
we always come too late when its about showing someone you appreciate him
how true is that? Now the entire world misses him including me. He was alive until yesterday, no one thought about him. Everytime people just wanted to mock his nose or tease him for his child molestation allegation. I'm glad these humans have learnt to appreciate him for his music, the smiles his music put on sad faces and the bliss his music gave in our wounded hearts.
The same goes for us. Because of our differences, we humans tend to fight against each other and sometimes hold grudges for years. In my years of research of finding "blissful life", I've learnt to look at the goodness of humans than the bad qualities they possess. That has given me a new meaning towards life. We humans aren't perfect, all of us make mistakes. We forgive, forget and we move on in life. Most of us judge others based on the wrong deeds they do towards us, learn to look at their goodside. Your life might change completely. This has helped me a lot of late, my heart is light without any worries, no grudges like never before.
Another thought that comes to my mind.... we are born once, we die once. It is the body I'm talking about. But the spirit and mind has the ability to be reborn. We go through tough times in our lives, some of us die emotionally, but the body is alone alive. They are called, "walking dead". We need to realize this fact and learn the art to be born again, emotionally, stronger than never before. Belief is all that matters. Believe in yourself my dear friends. Until our body is alive, we can be reborn... believe in yourself... no matter what... believe in yourself.... you can be reborn.
As I type this post, I can hear MJ singing "heal the world", I would like to say... "Heal the heart" before you heal the world.... let me leave in silence......

There's a place in your heart
And I know that it is love
And this place could be much
Brighter than tomorrow.
And if you really try
You'll find there's no need to cry
In this place you'll feel
There's no hurt or sorrow.
There are ways to get there
If you care enough for the living
Make a little space, make a better place.
Chorus:
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me.
If you want to know why
There's a love that cannot lie
Love is strong
It only cares for joyful giving.
If we try we shall see
In this bliss we cannot feel
Fear or dread
We stop existing and start living
Then it feels that always
Love's enough for us growing
Make a better world, make a better world.
Chorus:
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race.
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me.
Bridge:
And the dream we would conceived in
Will reveal a joyful face
And the world we once believed in
Will shine again in grace
Then why do we keep strangling life
Wound this earth, crucify it's soul
Though it's plain to see, this world is heavenly
Be God's glow.
We could fly so high
Let our spirits never die
In my heart I feel
You are all my brothers
Create a world with no fear
Together we'll cry happy tears
See the nations turn
Their swords into plowshares
We could really get there
If you cared enough for the living
Make a little space to make a better place.
Chorus:
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me.
Refrain (2x)
There are people dying if you care enough for the living
Make a better place for you and for me.
There are people dying if you care enough for the living
Make a better place for you and for me.
You and for me / Make a better place
You and for me / Make a better place
You and for me / Make a better place
You and for me / Heal the world we live in
You and for me / Save it for our children
You and for me / Heal the world we live in
You and for me / Save it for our children
You and for me / Heal the world we live in
You and for me / Save it for our children
You and for me / Heal the world we live in
You and for me / Save it for our children